Aleister Crowley, Alice Cooper, Grace Jones, D’angelo, Larry Gatlin, Kci and Jojo, Do you see where I’m going with this? Whether or not it’s the dad or granddad, sometimes we pk’s go to the absolute extreme in rebellion. Although I’ve never touched drugs, alcohol or abused my body, I must say that my rebellion came in the form of reaching for the darkness. Voodoo, the occult, magic, mediumship, ouija boards, they all attracted me.
I am also inclined to believe that usually those of us who do go to such extremes, know about a higher calling on our lives and possess gifts that come without repentence. In other words, those of us who are “born under the veil” as the old people would say.
Other people don’t realize who bothersome those “spiritual gifts’ can be when they don’t have an outlet. If you’re reading this and aren’t a believer, you may as well move on because you won’t understand that of which I speak. When I say bothersome, I mean that energy is a natural force in nature and all things carry energy of some form that is neither able to be created by man or destroyed.
Spirits, pain, death, rage, happiness, etc all leave that imprint in the air. All people aren’t aware of it. But to those of us who are, “born under the veil”, we may feel it, see it or hear it, no differently than we feel the extremes of heat, or a cold wind. Prayer, meditation and fasting tends to keep it in check but when that’s no longer available because we don’t wish to be reminded of that part of our lives when we rebel. Well, then it needs some outlet.
Rebellion from that which we were raised, causes other people to look at us in a negative light. They talk about us, criticize everything we do and ostracize. It makes you feel like an outcast and of course in our minds, we often feel like the devil incarnate because that is how people treat us. In most cases, the average PK may just get depressed but in other cases, we start feeling as if, “hey they already think I’m the devil, I might as well act like it. That’s when we start reaching for the extreme.
We know what’s right to do, but choose to do the opposite; sometimes it’s for attention, sometimes for shock value, other times because it’s an outlet. We usually have intentions to come back but sometimes we don’t make it back. Sometimes the power found in the dark, will suck you in so far until you become dependent on it. For without it, there is no one else there for you. Not even your family or G-d himself because you’ve alienated them. And unless you want to find yourself sinking into a psychological and spiritual abyss, you cling to that which is familiar.